becoming indi

hi, my name is indigo; but my friends call me indi, and i use she/they/them pronouns. to answer the question, who is indi? would require a long backstory mixed with current events to begin to even find the answer.

truth is that i have not fully met indi yet. i have lived in a male body all my life; i am slowly discovering that indi has always been part of my identity and i never knew it. there is a lot to unpack in that statement and that is the reason for this blog. everyone has their own story about the journey of their lives and how they have found and live somewhat peacefully in that identity. the story of my journey has many twists and turns and highs and lows and stories of curiosity and loneliness and strength and resilience.

in a life that was filled with darkness and the reality that life is hard and that it will keep you down in depression and loneliness if you let it. I lived that way for decades and did what was expected of me to please others, without regard to what I wanted; but i couldn’t begin to describe what i wanted or needed. there were times when I couldn’t find the strength to move on or even the desire to continue. there was a hidden force that gave me the courage to keep on and live to fight another day which built the resilience that I needed to in the midst recovery from of all of those things.

i have uncovered a buried treasure deep in my soul that was waiting until the right time to be discovered; that treasure is indi. indi is coming into my life at the exact time when I need her the most. i can no longer deny her power nor do i want to. i am finding that indi is giving me courage to do things i never thought were possible. indi is now taking me by the hand on the journey of a lifetime and i cannot wait to see where it leads or the lessons i will learn from her.

the story of indi is the story of hope; a story of resilience; a story of a life made whole; and the story of my life. i am almost as excited for you to meet her as i am in becoming indi.